Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Nine Days

My c-section is scheduled for next Thursday, July 3rd. It is so crazy to me that in a little more than a week, I'm going to be a mom. In nine days, I am going to hold my daughter Madeline in my arms, and be forever changed. People are asking me if I'm ready-if we're ready- and honestly, I want to laugh. Is that possible? How do you  get ready for one of the biggest(if not THE biggest) things that can happen in your life? I am definitely excited, but right now, I feel more nervous, scared, apprehensive, etc. They say that the intuition kicks in when it's your own child, and you just know what to do. I hope "they" are right. I am counting on it!  There are so many unknowns right now about the future and what to expect. I AM scared, but it's a good fear, like when we went skydiving. As terrified as I was, If I hadn't jumped out of that plane, I would have missed out on one of the most amazing and breath-taking moments of my life. These last few days before becoming a parent, I feel a little like I did in that  plane. I knew it was too late to back down, but I didn't know if I was ready to make the jump. And just like then, I know now, that once I've made the jump, once they hand me my daughter and I look into her eyes, it will all be worth it.