Thursday, July 31, 2008
I'm sorry if I am way behind in the blog world and this is old news, but Becca recently read me some entries from the funniest blog, and I have been reading it for the past hour. I also saw that Lisa has a link to it on her site, so like I said, this could be old news. But if you haven't, you should take a look at stuffchristianslike.net. I think it's hilarious! Let me know what you think!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
So, I was sitting at the computer this morning, reading blogs actually, when the shaking began. The dogs started barking and running in circles, a glass votive fell and broke, the building swayed, and I ran to get Madeline who was asleep in her cradle. I have felt many earthquakes living in CA for the past 13 years, but this was by far the strongest I have ever felt. It was actually hard to run to her because everything was moving so much. I don't remember consciously thinking to go get Madeline. But, the second that I realized what was happening, the only thing that mattered was getting to her. I grabbed her and ran outside, calling the dogs to come with me. (Jon later informed me that I should not go outside, but under a table if it happens again. Funny, because we actually practice earthquake drills at school, and the kids all get under their desks. But in that moment, it didn't even occur to me. Oops.) Once the 20 minutes of shaking had passed(ok, it was like 8 seconds, but it felt MUCH longer) the fear hit and I thought my legs were going to give out on me. I was afraid to go back inside. I just stood there holding Madeline,who had slept through the excitement, and told her everything was ok. Within minutes, my sweet husband came rushing through the door. Since he works on campus, he was able to get there quickly. He hugged the two of us, and then I cried. I guess I was more shaken up(no pun intended)than I had even realized.
For those of you who felt it, this may be more dramatic than your own experience, or it may not be. I am not sure what it would have been like if I was alone at home. But, having my precious three week old baby sleeping peacefully in the next room, and feeling like the building was about to collapse on top of us at any moment, was definitely traumatic! I am very thankful that it was not worse, and I won't complain if I never feel another earthquake.
On a lighter note, I got my hair done today. I love getting my hair done. Right now I am definitely in an awkward post-baby stage, body-wise. Still wearing maternity jeans and sporting a mushy gut and huge boobs. Sigh. But hey, if I can't lose 20 pounds quickly, at least I can be a great shade of blonde! :)
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
I promised an update on Becca, and I had no idea what an amazing update it would be! The doctor called yesterday to report that whatever was in Becca's brain..the lesion/tumor/aneurysm/stroke...is GONE. In the words of the doctor, it has "taken care of itself." Or, in other words, God answered our prayers and healed my sister. I know it seems a little crazy, but they went from being almost sure that she had a tumor and would need surgery, to saying that it was some sort of aneurism that would probably need surgery to repair, to saying that her brain is completely normal.Whatever was there is now gone, and she does not need surgery, treatment,or even medication. Wow!
I'm looking back on the past month and a half, and remembering SO many prayers I prayed, asking God to do just this. Asking him that it not be life threatening, then asking that she not need brain surgery, and even daring to ask that he remove the lesion completely. And, although I asked and believed that he could do all of these things, I am still in a bit of shock that he did. I know that there may be medical explanations for what happened, or there may not be. We will never know exactly what happened. But, medical explanation or not, God healed my sister, and I am thankful.
Thank you again for your prayers. Please remember to thank and praise God for this amazing answer!!!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Most of you know that my sister Becca has been going through some serious medical stuff this month. It all started over a month ago while she was subbing. She texted me saying that she was having trouble writing--weird! My parents wound up taking her to the hospital later that day. She was having a hard time using her hands at all, and her speech was very slow. In fact, at one point, she couldn't talk at all. That weekend was a series of tests: CAT scans and MRI's. She was discharged that Monday. We were told that these was a lesion on her brain, and that it was most likely a non-cancerous brain tumor. The other likely possibility was that she had had a stroke. They needed to wait a month to determine which it was. So, the past month has been spent waiting, praying, and TRYING not to worry. This week we found out that she does not have a brain tumor. After two more tests, they have determined that she either had a brain aneurysm or an AVM.( This is a kind of stroke caused by a defect in veins formed during infancy. They can, but don't always, rupture eventually.) So, either way, something ruptured and caused bleeding in her brain, which caused swelling, which caused the symptoms that sent her to the hospital. We were actually relieved to get this news. Obviously these are both serious things, but the fact that it already happened, and Becca is ok and suffered no permanent damage is really amazing. It is crazy to think what could have happened. It is also a relief to know more of what is going on after battling the"what if''s" every night when I went to sleep this past month. It's hard not to think about worst case scenarios when you don't know anything for certain. She is having another test tomorrow which will hopefully determine exactly what happened,and what they need to do about it. She may need to have some kind of surgery to clean up or repair the damage. She really hopes that she won't. I will definitely write another update when we know more. Thank you so much for the prayers that you have said for Becca, me, and my family this past month. I truly appreciate it. It has been hard, but I am thankful to know that so many people care and are there for us.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
It is Sunday afternoon, and we are home with the new love of our lives, Madeline Grace. I can't really put into words how I
am feeling in this short space, so I'll just give a brief overview of the past few days. We went to the hospital Thursday morning for my scheduled c-section at 8:00. It was a very strange feeling, checking in, knowing that in hours we would be holding our baby. I was VERY nervous for the c-section. I talked to Sarah Towne shortly before going in, because she has had four c-sections and feels that they were very easy. She was extremely comforting, and told me that the insertion of the IV is the worst and most painful part. That part was already done, so I was glad to hear that! Well, long story short, my c-section took about twice as long as normal, and I hated every minute of it. Sorry for any of you who may be needing to have one anytime soon. I'm sure yours will be great! :) But for me, lying awake, feeling my insides being tugged around, seeing my blood spray onto the sheet in front of me, (oh yeah, and onto my forehead!), was a bit worse than the IV being inserted. (Love you, sarah!!)
Apparently, it took them quite a while to get her out because she was still very high, since I had not labored at all. So, they needed to use some sort of tool they call a vacuum, and the one they were using was faulty! After trying to use it for about 10 minutes with no success, they opened a new box up, took out the new vacuum, and she came out on the first try. Weird huh? All I can say is, I have had so many people tell me that a c-section is no big deal, so I must have a very low tolerance for being cut open while awake! I am very impressed with my friends who have handled the experience with a lot more courage.
Once she was here, of course, none of that mattered. To me, Madeline is the most beautiful, sweet baby in the world. I can not believe she has been growing inside of me all this time. I know that I worried that I would know what to do with her, but "they" were right. Even when I don't know what I am doing, taking care of her feels like the most natural thing in the world, because she is mine. I could have never imagined what it would be like, and I still can't really get my head around it. I don't exactly feel like a mom yet, I just feel like the most blessed person in the world to be given this amazing gift. I feel a love for her, and connection to her, that is strong, unique, and indescribable. I am in awe that I could love her this much already.
So, we are home from the hospital. I only had to stay until Sat., which was nice. I was ready to come home. I am still a little sore and taking pain killers, but it's not too bad at all. I am trying to figure out the breast feeding thing. We are getting the hang of it, I think. I am sad that I still look pregnant. Jon said, "Yeah, but only 6 months pregnant." Thanks babe. He means well. And, unfortunately, he's right.
I am tired, but not too tired. I feel like my life is in a weird state of limbo, where all that really matters is Madeline...and getting back into my normal clothes. :)